9-18-09: Putting God on the Shelf

God showed me that I still put Him on the shelf and that is why I am screaming to break free, when certain people are around due to past rejection and abandonment because of my walk. As a result of the relationship being reconciled many years ago in a way that only God could do, I would never have imagined that I would've reverted to this behavior again. When that person wasn't around I would have a freedom in God that I didn't have with their being present. Yesterday, that freedom returned; I refuse to put God on the shelf in fear of a person(s) abandoning me. Call me a fanatic, a freak or whatever, because God knows my heart; no one else is qualified to judge. I began to dance for God. There is a dance in my heart that is only for God. Thank you for reading.