1. In observing, caring and advocating for a friend that I learned had been in an accident, I learned why it is not worth getting angry to the point of yelling and screaming. She has encountered some severe injuries...but when things get her upset it is as though she cannot speak, hyperventilates and comes very close (if not going all the way) to having an anxiety attack. However, when she is stable in her emotions, one can easily understand her. MY AHA!: My energy is MINE! It is more healthy for me to respond in ways that compliment me rather than harm me. For those that I repeated encounter that are draining and I find myself spending energy that cost me too much to rebuild, it is my responsibility to respond and to decide whether they should remain in my life and if so, in what capacity.
2. It felt good to not sabotage myself. I submitted a report today that I would have otherwise waited until Monday to complete and submit. Though it would've still been on time, I made a declaration several weeks ago that all of my reports will be in at least 24-48 hours ahead of time and they have been. MY AHA!: I create the energy that requires me to hurry and scurry as though the adrenaline has become a coping mechanism to make me feel worthy of having the property assignments. I disassociate with this agreement. "I give myself permission to flourish, to accept and have endless property assignments and have more closings in shorter and shorter periods of time."
May you be enriched by the things that I have learned about myself and choose to share so that your learning curve can be shorter than mine. I learned this from Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor in her book, My Stroke of Insight, while on the Oprah Winfrey show years ago, "Please take responsibility for the ENERGY you bring into the room." Thanks for reading! Feel free to share with others.
