Are You Living a Lie?

I'm sitting here in the comforts of my home, watching Oprah's Next Chapter (one of my favorite TV shows) interview with Jason Collins.  I am so proud of this family!  Their display of the how a well-to-do, educated, African-American family handles a matter such as this in a functional way is a great example for many others from all cultures & walks of life to see.  Also, witnessing the genuine support that they have and rally behind Jason in his decision is refreshing too.  I am happy for Jason! For me, its not so much of his "coming out" as it is that he doesn't have to live a lie anymore.  The burden, the hiding, the secret, the lie and having to live that way is no way for anyone to live.  Can you imagine how it could have affected his game and so much more?  Listening to Mr. Collins divulge how he came to his decision to tell the truth one could easily find fault, however I was moved with the question of, "how many others are living a lie?", not so much about their sexuality, rather in anything they are experiencing.  Of course, you cannot ponder that question without turning those reflections and that examination inward. One of my "aha"s is accepting that I have held back in the growth of my business, even though I display that I am giving it my all. That too is a lie.  To make it right, tonight I have decided to proceed with the things that have been in my heart to do from the classes, to the signage, to systems and take courage.  Also, accepting that I have a toxic relationship with my mother and sister that is healthier for me to keep my distance and love them from afar than to continuously subjecting  or leaving myself open to or for their unwelcomed verbal vomit rather than creating a facade which eats at my spirit.  To think, I previously felt that if I accepted this truth and lived in this space that I would not be allowed to do the other things that are in my heart.  It was as though my being in some sort of happy relations with them would in some way validate who I am or give me license for me to go forth. Thank  you Mr. Collins for coming out...in so doing I have chosen to come out in my own personal way that unleashed the mental depravity that I once found solace though it was a prison in and of its own making.

I am in a great place and look forward to more beautiful experiences & living life out loud! Thanks for reading and responding :-)